Eternal Love


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"My soul writhes knowing another arm would grip you tighter like I did. Fear not, for my love for you is not selfish. I want you to be happy and start forgetting me since death separated us, my love."

Ana sobbed. Slowly, tears shed seeing me in a ghost form for the last time. The sound of her agony brought sadness to me.

"So sorry, Agon—"
She bathed herself with tears.

"Don't be-"
With a soft voice, I reminded her.

"Let's accept the fact, Ana. It tears me apart even though I am nothing now but hollowed. There is nothing I can do for now, however, wish you happiness."

Only the sound of her crumbling world I could hear. She deafened me with her sobbing loudly. I had been yearning to hug her and comfort her. I wanted to heat her up to lessen the coldness that engulfed her wounded heart.

Desperately. Tears would love to fall but there was nothing to fall. Once again, I was mad not to feel her, her hands, her face and everything.

"Wooooossshhhhhh"

She was shaking suddenly, she felt cold when the wind blew. Maybe it was not just the wind, my mere existence itself conveyed it.

"I'm sorry, Ana."

"No, not at all Agon."

She nodded side by side.

"My soul writhes knowing another arm would grip you tighter like I did. Fear not, for my love for you is not selfish. I want you to be happy and start forgetting me since death separated us, my love."


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My time was almost over. My hands started fading. I was in anguish. I wanted to feel her one last time. She screamed loudly, noticing the parts of my body had started fading.

"Agon—-"

Her soft voice was so cold like a mist in winter. I was jealous of the people who still live together with their loved ones. Flashing back the memories of when I was still alive. I was badly desperate but I knew nothing would be happening.

I just closed my eyes and fervently, I prayed to God.

I opened my eyes when I felt Ana's body touch mine. I was never happy when at last even for the last time I could shed my tears to show her my true sadness and regrets of leaving her early. I hugged her tightly and flooded her with my tears.

"Ana, I prayed to God to give me one last time to hold you and hug you."

She was still speechless and couldn't believe what was happening. She hugged me tightly but like dust, I mixed into the wind as I turned back into a ghost again.

"I wish nothing but happiness for you Ana. Nothing in this world is easier but time will teach you everything how to handle it well. Cry, smile, cry, smile, and continue the process until you can understand that this is life."

I slowly faded but this time I showed her a smiling face. I wanted to tell her to be happy and be happy. I left her with a painful goodbye but I was so sure that she could forget me and she could love another man like she loved me.

END….